An Update

It has come to my attention that very few followers actually followed me to the new blog.  I miss the support and friendship I once had.  I have found many of you on FB and we are able to chat all the time, which has been great!  I realize I've been reading other people's blogs and not commenting lately but I'm not sure why really.  Anyway, I thought I would share the post below to update those that don't know what is new in our lives (it was originally posted on my new blog, but most of you didn't follow me to the new one last spring) : 

I went back and forth on if I would start trying for baby number two in August or September this time around.  After doing some very difficult math, ok, after putting the date of my July period into a due date estimator on the internet, I had made my decision.  When I had Eyes, I was able to take off eight weeks because of my c-section (otherwise it would have been six weeks).  It was nice to have the time with him, but it was too short.  I also ended up missing the first two weeks of school, and felt like I was a bit clueless to policy changes for the entire year (though in hindsight that might have just been new-mom-fog).  I would prefer to time baby number two differently.  Preferably, in a dream world, I would end up taking time off at the end of the year and then the baby would be a bit older when he/she attends daycare for the first time.

So, I had my first IUI on Sunday...or is it my fourth IUI?  Do I count the IUI attempts from when I had Eyes too?  Either way, I have to say that two days later, I find myself very moody and impatient with some mild crampiness.  I have said for awhile now, I don't feel like this August attempt will work, and I feel good about the September attempt.  It would be a pretty amazing miracle if this attempt works.  It was a strange cycle where aunt flo visiting longer than normal, and I ovulated several days later than usual.  I waiver back and forth whether it worked or not.

When I was TTC for Eyes, I felt so nervous about all of it; the TTC process, pregnancy, motherhood, SMC.  This time I felt nervous excitement going into the actual IUI.  When Dr. B had finished the procedure, I laid there in the quiet for a few minutes.  I started to happy-cry a bit.  Eyes has been such a wonderful blessing, the idea of having another child feels like such an amazing gift.  I don't feel the fear this time, just the joy of being a mom.  I feel a calm that I didn't feel before, and I know that whatever the outcome, we will be ok.

If you are interested in keeping up with us, the new blog is:

aplannedlife.wordpress.com